PUPO

In the fertility blogging world "PUPO" means "pregnant until proven otherwise".  So consider me officially PUPO! 

I had a wonderful healing touch session this morning.  It was so relaxing.  It was a total out of body experience.  I figured a little chinese medicine wouldn't hurt.  My 'healer' laid her hands on my different joints and meditated.  I cannot even put into words how incredibly peaceful the whole experience is.  When I first laid on the massage table and we began it took me forever to stop thinking weird thoughts.  For example "Wow, so this is the type of music you're suppose to play when meditating".  "I'm really suppose to be envisioning the room being flooded with a golden light?", "I wonder if I'll really fall asleep", "Please let those embryos stick today" "I wonder if I have a booger in my nose that she can see".  But the best part about all these thoughts is that at the end of our session she said to me "It took you a while to get out of your head huh?"  She informed me that's why she spent so long at my ankles.  That I had a hard time letting go and relaxing.  Obviously.  She also informed me that most of my energy is on my left side and I need to balance it out.  I told her the Wii Fit tells me the same thing.  I'm not balanced.  She told me that before I get out of bed every morning I need to center my focus and think about my body being in balance for about 5 minutes.  She said even that simple act will help me out.   I'm willing to give it a shot.

So I popped my valium at 11 and arrived at 11:30 with a full bladder.  I'm pretty sure they make you take the valium so you don't care when you're spread eagle on a table in front of 4 people.  Two female nurses and two male doctors.  Usually you can be somewhat modest and have a sheet draped over your legs, but for transfers they have to pull the sheet up to your belly button because one nurse is giving you an ultrasound on your belly at the same time.  Modesty shmodesty. 

The transfer went perfectly.  The embryos were placed in exactly the right spot.  Now it's up to them.  We only had one really good looking embryo.  Graded at a 3+ (Doc said it technically could habe been a 4).  **Embryos are graded on a scale of 1-5.  5 being almost never heard of-too good to be true, 4 being great, 3 being average, 2 below average and 1 crap**.  We had one embryo that didn't make it through the thaw which was a blessing because now I don't feel like I wasted an embryo.  The other 2 embryos were a 2+ and a 2.  Doc doesn't have much hope for the 2.  Hopefully my fertility tricks will help out and this one will be a success! 

I'm enjoying vegging on the couch so far.  My very bestest friend and roomie came by to keep me company.  She brought me a Disney car person back from Disneyworld (since I had scraped mine off my car during one of the snow storms).  

We are so blessed and touched by all the supportive responses we've gotten on facebook from our friends and family.  Our lives have been changed for the better because of you! 

Cheers to the 2ww!! :)