Wrapping my head around it.

I just can't. There is so much information. Recently, I've discovered that I love history. I want to learn as much as I can. I want to go to historical places. I'm driven. This is a characteristic I discovered in myself in college. I must have had it some in high school since I did fairly well, but I remember discovering my fierce determination the summer before college. I'm not saying I'm a go-getter because I'm not really a people person, but I do love to consume vast amounts of useless information. I have an insatiable hunger to devour facts, timelines and words. If a problem presents itself, I learn about it and figure it out till I solve it. I'm a crossword puzzle lover and don't fully operate until I've done a sudoku puzzle then a crossword puzzle. My recent addiction are solving the ones in the paper. They're harder than those easy books I keep picking up. When we realized we may have a problem with infertility, I read about it. I googled everything (good and bad), but this recent What IF project has got my head spinning! I remembered when I joined a fertility forum in February. I wanted to connect with people going through IVF the same month as me. I thought to myself "I can't believe I've waited so long to connect with people like is". But then most of them got pregnant and now I'm a forum drop-out. And then I learned about National Infertility Awareness week. I'm disappointed no one else wanted to point that out on their facebook statuses. I'm a pretty honest and out spoken person and I lack the shameful feeling that some people get when fertility affects them. I can't control this and it's not my fault or my husband's fault. It is what it is.

Everytime I read one blog, I get sucked into another and I'm just beginning to grasp the huge number of people infertility touches. It's not just those people directly dealing with it. It's our families, our friends, the stranger who gets the stare down in the grocery store because they let their kid wander out of their sight. And I just can't wrap my head around how many people this week speaks to. 7.3 million....and that's just the amount of people that have come forward.

I usually don't post anything political, but the previous link is an interesting article. I might have to move to West Virginia to get some better insurance....